Tuesday, July 13, 2010

New Rules

After a couple of rocky visits to friends and family, I think we may need to have a talk about Noah coming over. We all know about Noah's impulse control (or lack thereof) and his sensory seeking behavior. These issues make it difficult for us to bring Noah most places. Typically as children get older your world to explore as a family opens wide, with Noah we feel the opposite. There are fewer places we can take him. We are trying to wrestle a spot between feeling isolated and not going places that set Noah up for failure. It's a constant walk on a tight-rope. Navigating the world with a special needs child is not easily understood, even our closest friends and family don't understand it. In fact, Owen understands better than most what it is like because he lives it every day, and every day is what it takes to know the realities of our situation. Coping with Noah and his special needs is a learning experience for us. It is also a learning experience for those in our lives.

My sweet baby has been in therapy since he was 9 months old. We are working as furiously as possible to help him learn to self-regulate his out of control behavior. We also spend a ton of time and money trying to teach him to play with toys. Seems like a funny thing to have to teach a kid until you step into a therapy environment and find its full of toys. Lots of special needs kids don't have the motor skills or cognitive understanding to play with many toys. When an average child sees a toy, they want to play with it, interact, pretend. When Noah sees a toy, he needs to touch it, taste it, bite it, then probably throw it around a little bit. It's just who he is and a product of his delays.

At home Noah has plenty of places to play. We don't have knick-knacks or anything down that couldn't handle a good throw. We also have bins of beans, cheerios, and outside sand and water with which he can get his sensory seeking ya-yas out. We have a high tolerance for mess and can clean with lightning speed. We think of Noah affectionately as our "Baby Godzilla". Now that doesn't mean we think you need to prepare for your house to be Tokyo, but here are some ideas that may make visits from us less stressful for all:

1. A quick sweep to get up any knick-knacks, breakables, or inedibles up. We need to remove anything that he can break and also anything he could put in his mouth that would be bad for him (like potpourri, flowers, mouthsize decorations, etc). Some things that may also need to go depending on the room: dog bowls, dog toys, picture frames within reach (if outside, pick up the dog poop). You may also want to consider blocking access to electronics, and anything filled with dirt, ash, mud, water if you don't want him to play in it.

2. If we need to avoid any rooms please speak up. We will not be at all offended if it's just easier to not go into the room decorated with fine china and priceless art. But please don't deny Noah access to the room where everyone is gathered. We didn't come to your house to sit by ourselves or feel isolated.

3. Noah needs something to do at your house. As we mentioned, he doesn't really know how to play with most toys, so that obvious solution is pretty much out. Right now he loves to fill things up and dump them out. I don't mind bringing him some bins and cereal, but he will get it all over. Geoff and I have no problem cleaning up before we go, but however Noah plays it will be messy.

4. Noah will try to entice you to wrestle with him but PLEASE DON'T (ATTENTION GRANDFATHERS AND UNCLES: RE-READ THIS SENTENCE)!! He doesn't know how to calm himself after he gets all excited. He will then challenge everyone else to wrestle regardless of how unwilling they are to engage. He also doesn't understand that wrestling is not appropriate with all people, like the little girl with Down Syndrome in his class that is half his size.

5. Sorry, but from here on out, we probably won't be able to attend family events and big get togethers. Noah gets so overstimulated and they last so long or start so late that it is a disaster. We hope this won't be a life long sentence. For holidays this may mean that Owen and Geoff or I stop by briefly, or we have you over in smaller groups to our home. We love our families and love spending holidays with them, but it just doesn't work right now. We ask for you patience and understanding as we try to spend time with you, spend time with each other, not feel isolated or excluded, but also not set ourselves up with a situation that we know to be an anxiety ridden failure. That is a tall order to balance and honestly, we are struggling to find our way.

6. Lastly, we want to ask you to accept Noah. Some people treat him like he just has a cold and one day it will be better, others treat him as if a cure will come soon, some still think he just needs the right medication or therapy to make him better. We wish it was that simple. The truth is, it is far more complex. As we wrote in a previous post, Noah's condition remains somewhat of a mystery, and chances are, it won't be getting better for a long, long, time if at all. It would help us if our friends and families accepted that Noah is who he is. Let's not pretend anymore that he is something different. Your job, like ours, is to help us make Noah the best person he can be with what skills he has. That acceptance makes it easier to employ the kind of changes we are asking. Noah needs a soft place to fall, not another complex room to navigate.

I know it feels like we are asking a lot from all of you; we are and we know it. But we want to feel welcome in your home, all of us. It is miserable when Geoff or I need to chase Noah around someones house because there is just too much for him to get into. It means we can't have a conversation, or even sit down. We love our friends and our families and really want to be apart of your lives. We hope you all decide that we aren't too much work.

Amy and Geoff

1 comment:

  1. Amy & Geoff~we deal with the same thing with Ryan, not as extreme but he will be going to a "special" school for 1st grade just as he did for kindergarten and will probably for the rest of his school years. Ryans problem is the opposite though as he doesn't get overly excited but gets extremely angry, stressed and has a complete melt-down to where he is usually excused from class in order to calm down. This often happens in public. Its hard for us too to take him places especially to friends houses so we much rather stay home. I hope you guys know that ALL of your family, I think, understand your situation and accept little Noah just the way he is! I would hate not to see you guys at family functions. Just knowing that we all understand your situation will help you guys not to feel so stressed and anxious.

    PS Ry's best friend Chloe has Down Syndrome so I understand the part about being prepared for a messy house and having something for them to do. Its hard but I think you guys are doing a GREAT job! I envy how strong you both are. I think you guys need to give yourselves more credit. Everytime I see Amy I'm in "ah" at her strength and patience. xoxoxoxoxoxox

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